started walking again today. it was good. maybe because it was after one of my walks that i saw any muscle definition, whatever it is i’m happy to be walking again.
i also did squats but i think i did them wrong because after a while i started feeling them in my knee and i did exercises with dumbbells and stretching.
i’ve been so angry lately, i have good days because i bite my tongue and just try to ignore it but eventually it bubbles over and i just snap at everyone or everything. need to figure this out, so from now on i’m going to talk my anger out to myself in my head and rationalize it.
i’ve been up since 4am, it hasn’t been a good day. i’m not a morning person, so when i wake up with the goal of working out and getting stuff done people prohibiting that from happening makes me ridiculously upset. i feel like the muscle definition i saw a few days ago is a figment of my imagination and i took it really hard this morning. not my finest moment. i don’t know why but i feel like seeing that and then it not being real undermines all the work i’ve done,as though none of it is real.
mine time ended up being monopolized, i was busy all day and in the evening when i was going to workout i was dragged into helping my brother and i wasn’t done with that till 3am. at which point i just wasn’t working out.
tomorrow i will workout. it will be good.
today i did crunches, exercises with dumbbells, push-ups, sit-ups, squats and stretching.
i’m happy with it but i feel like its not enough. i like the walking thing i was doing but i slept in today so i couldn’t go. maybe tomorrow.
today i become the support group of someone i really important to me. i’m going to help them work towards a healthy weight goal. i’m no where near where i want to be with my body but i’m on the way there and i’ve not had to do it alone and neither will she.
today i did exercises with dumbbells, squats, push-ups, lunges, and stretching. i don’t know if the muscle definition was proper definition or just the trick of light but it’s okay. eventually i’ll accept that i’m actually making a change with my body for the better.